My mind is blank. My mind is black. I no longer think of anything that is related to my emotional state.
Someone told me "Ryan, huwag kang emotional. Take it from me. Nag-asawa ako ng maaga kasi naging emotional ako. Dapat huwag mong gawin ang pagkakamaling yun"
From that day onwards, I turned selfish. I only think about myself and mom and my sister. Nothing else.
Love. Really. I don't think about it anymore.
I only think about nothing. Nothing.
I wake up. Eat. Go to school. My emotional state is not working at all.